One of the consequences of a young life with a scarcity of affirmation and full of emotional injury, is that your mind is wired to constantly question yourself. It is a form of mental torture that requires strength of mind to rebuff.
When your low self esteem keeps those curve balls coming, it takes some inner grit to keep stepping up to the plate and knocking them out the park. Because, questioning every sentence that comes out of your mouth, revisiting conversations over and over again, sure that you put your foot in it, said something that made you look a fool, that irritated your friends. Every time. Questioning yourself. It. Is. Exhausting. But you’ve got to fight it, you can fight it.
You’ve got to find a place where you can know with certainty that you have strengths and wonderful qualities. That needs to be non negotiable. But even more powerful than that is knowing the source of your identity. Knowing that it doesn’t matter if you screw up, if you fumble, if you’re off centre, if you’re not on form. It doesn’t even matter if you’re in a jail cell or if you’re a CEO, if you’re desired or rejected by people. It doesn’t matter.
Because in Jesus, you are accepted. You are seen. You are known. And you are deeply loved. Not because of anything you have done or not done, but simply because he knows who he created you to be and he loves you. His love has the strength to step up to the plate with you and adding his power to your swing, helps you hit the home runs you need.